Rain, Rain, Go Away...

This week has been so soggy! Several of my co-workers’ basements have flooded or their roofs have leaked. Even though I live at the top of a hill, our basement tends to flood as well. During the heavy rains last month, my poor little storage space was flooded with dirty, smelly water. My landlord cleaned everything up and luckily nothing was damaged. I didn’t have too much down there other than some Rubbermaid totes, a painting, and my fake Christmas tree. I guess it got watered…(Christ, that’s such a bad joke, I’m so sorry.)

So tomorrow I am going on a blind date. I’ve never had a good experience with blind dates and I’m thinking this one will be no different. I still remember the first one I went on—he was twenty-three, I was eighteen. He picked me up in his mom’s station wagon and proceeded to take me to dinner at Subway…because he had coupons…but I ended up paying for my own sandwich…then we went to Jake’s in downtown Iowa City because it was his friend’s birthday…and there was free beer…It was awkward and strange and not what I expected at all. Needless to say, when he leaned in for a kiss at the end of the night, I told him I thought I was coming down with a cold and that he probably shouldn’t get too close. I never returned his calls. Harsh, but…come on…Subway?

The thing is, I’m not really in the mood to date anyone. There’s too much pressure and expectation. I guess I’m going because I don’t want to disappoint my friends. I can’t say “no” to them. It’s one of my biggest weaknesses. Why couldn’t my weakness be chocolate instead?

The website at work is coming along quite well. Preliminary meetings have shown that my ideas are actually feasible, doable, even. Certain relationships at work have been a little stressful, but I’m still managing to leave work at work and just relax when I get home. I’m so glad I learned that skill at an early stage in my working career. Some days are more difficult than others, but I don’t obsess about my job and work relationships the way I did when I was a secretary. I’ve learned not to beat myself up when things go wrong. ‘Cause they’re going to go wrong whether I worry or not.

I’ve punked out a bit on the whole yoga-teaching adventure. I thought it was something I would really enjoy, but I’ve found I’m somewhat terrified to get up in front of a group of strangers and tell them to twist their bodies into strange positions. I know if I just suck it up and teach more I’ll get used to it, but there’s an initial level of shyness I haven’t been able to overcome. Plus, I seem to be running out of spare time. Between work, the studio, going to my own yoga classes, and trying to keep my apartment clean, I find there’s not much time left for anything else. I don’t want to sacrifice any of that right now. I guess I’m being a little selfish right now. I hope that’s okay.

Cheers